Hail the son of Laufey, the God of scary things, the God who comforts me.

Hail Loki

Heil to you Loki ! For the strength to resist temptation ! For the strength you provide me to keep my oath to you !

Thank you Loki, for being the god of neurodiversity. I have never seen such ADHD aside from one student I had. It's really inspiring when our Deities have the same characteristics we do and it's necessary as part of the diversity for survival , everyone plays there special role.

Thank you Loki, for visiting me! And having your wife confirm that you do read over her shoulder just like you did with me – especially when it's about you. I hope that you liked the objects in my room that you are handling . I didn't expect you to be so much a flamboyant queen and yet be so utterly traditionally masculine and heterosexual at the same time. I loved it. I want to talk to you about my friend who is married to you. And I know that you don't like me talking to you about her and so we usually go through your wife. But I need to tell you that she is really sick and she needs your help. The doctors were not helpful and she thinks that she needs an MRI but she doesn't know if her GP will give her one.
She has very poor circulation with edema , varicose veins and what appears to be endometriosis. I'm sure that you have figured out that her migraines seem to be triggered by menstrual hormonal changes and that you know she has fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome.

She doesn't go to you because she think she should do it herself and not bother you . I know that enrages you because as your wife she should come to you and ask you to do everything you can to help her. I am asking you for her.

There are two problems. And her family her father suffers from severe depression he doesn't do anything. Her mother takes care of him and gets nothing in return so your wife only knows that as a model. And I just recently was talking to her about the problems in my marriage because we had different ideas of what it meant and how that really is a postmodern problem because normally you would know exactly what your culture expected . So now we are really either just winging it or having to be really conscious about what we want, we can give and what fits us as people. These conversations are essential and the couples who last are the ones that I see have those. When she married you her model of marriage was to serve you and keep her problems to herself. It never occurred to her that you might be offended . That you might be hurt and frustrated that she's not letting you in and I know that when people try to "protect each other" in marriage it just creates separation. So please understand . She's only now figuring out that you want to be involved with her business. And you were hurt because she didn't ask for your help. I'm not sure how much she understands the imbalance between her parents.

I think she is afraid to ask for your help because her father is pretty bitchy when asked to help her or her mother with anything. I'm not sure but she might be scared of you being angry and that's why she says that she feels like she should do this yourself.

Also not knowing what's wrong with your body is really scary and I know that you will get to the bottom of the problem but I think she's afraid of what that might be. I know that I myself have had to wait until I was ready to face harsh truths that change my life drastically and I didn't want to have it be real . However I'm concerned there might be cancer or something else really really wrong with her ovaries or tubes . Plus the pain she experiences when menstruating and the pain of the varicose veins and her own fears about her body changing . As a woman we are caught to be insecure about how we look and when illness affects that for some reason that can be the most devastating part. Please let her know she's beautiful. And do your special magic that gets her in to see the right specialist and have the right tests as soon as possible so she can have relief and if anything is seriously wrong start treatment immediately. But please help her with all of her health issues. You know I love you and your children especially your two boys and wife. I know that you are loyal . She is not withholding information because she doesn't trust you. She just has never had a relationship where she can ask for this kind of help and you know it's frightening for humans when we are sick and the doctors cannot tell us why or help – that fear can somehow minimize the importance. But it's really important , she's in so much pain, and if you are the husband that I think you are please go to her! Hold her, give her comfort and forgive her human limitations . She really wants to give you offerings all the time but she's too sick. Now I know that the offering you really want is her trust . I will tell her that so please take care of her , she hasn't been avoiding you , she's been really sick and wanting to do it herself.

Thank you for all of your help with my own health problems recently. You are a very powerful healer and it is a real honor that you and your wife and two sons all offered to send some sort of love and healing . I hope all of you are well . I wish that the northern tradition didn't overfocus on how scary gods and goddesses are – I know we all had to do that to balance things out from the fluffy bunny pagans that saw Gods as just entities that get you stuff . But you are much more loving, all of you that I've met than the books make it out to be. Otherwise why would there be devotion? I would never be in a masochistic religion. Your devotion is what inspires that so many.